Memory of the Past, Present n Future

Sudddenly i'm thinking a lot after chatting with a fren which i have not met for a few years.....although he is is younger than me......he is kinda of more matured.....in short.....i'm like a child n mayb a bit of a spoilt brat.......i dunno......haha......that is how i felt.....i wonder wat will become of me in another 5 years.......will i be very successful or ?? well that is future.......n i dun think i have to power to look into the future but i do have the power to change the future.....that is what i believe in.........sometimes being the eldest u have a big responsibility on ur shoulder wihout u realizing it.......it is an automatic responsibility that have been placed upon u......sometimes i wish i could be rebellious n jz run away.....not wanting to care about all the things in the world......i wan to live in my own world......however, i know that i couldn't do this so i'm back at square 1......hope that an angel will come to my path n bring me some light of guidance........